I visited my girls twice that year. 3 months apart. It seems the sudden outcome of getting to be near them triggered me to fear. All my primal fears came out.
2 months later I got in a fight with my boyfriend and decided on a whim to drive up to the state the girls' were living in where my family also happened to be visiting at that time.
Long story short, I was so upset and blinded by visions I wrecked the car. I got taken to a hospital by some nice guys in a gas station. I was able to call my fiance and convince him to come up and get me. I was using the wifi when I noticed the names of the networks were those of planets in our solar system. While I was noticing this, a cop nearby replied to somebody, "Oh, once She gets em all in there." As if I need to map out all the planets and then we can continue on our mission and adventures.
Everybody was in sync and I was in the neighborhood of the girls, at least close by, by being in the same city as them. People seemed to possess great empathy and compassion all around me and played into the story of protecting my kids, and continuing galactic life.
I slept in a shelter that night. The next day I went into a Japanese shop to charge my phone. Someone bought me a meal. The cops suddenly showed up and said "Ma'am, it's time to go." The Japanese owners of the shop were rattling off in their language and seemed to be talking about my unique spiritual situation.
I left the building and walked down the street toward the shelter I was at. I stopped cold, there was our car, my fiance had driven up and arrived precisely at this time. I turned around as he went past me. His car was now somehow moving in the other direction, toward me not away, in the right lane. He didn't have time to turn around in a crowded road of cars in the time I took to turn around. One of those "Matrix Mysteries" my fiance, who I also call my 'Guardian' is so good at supplying me. I felt a part of Mother Nature and everything was connected, Planet, Earth, people as his car approached.
We got in and made it to the gas station. My boyfriend then fixed up the Tahoe I was driving. I was still tripping out, thinking of thoughts of hell and worried about the evil ones on my case. He fixed the car, replaced the tire and went in the store. I saw a red Tahoe pulling away after it got done fueling up at the pump in my rearview mirror. I said ok I guess he's ready to go! And followed him. Get a call down the road that it's him and he is NOT in the car I followed. So I drove a little further behind the Tahoe and watched as it parked in a driveway at a dead end. I pulled in next to it. A guy climbed out of the driver seat, looking and acting the part of a spiritual/cosmic shadow & warden. I waved and drove off.
Behind my husband now we go to a kfc, people are in sync, telling their infant babies no to be gluttons, or needy, and drink or eat too much. As humans, (as the human race), we need to come off our addictions.
My husband buys me my favorite food, drink and a country love song suddenly comes on the speaker. We pile in the cars and head to buy cigarettes next.
It is one of those outside shops. I see his figure in the 🌙 moonlight, as I am thinking about our galactic Mission, and the clerk says, "Where are you from?" He says: "Space, 🚀" The clerk replies: "Show me your papers." A minute is taken. He comes back to my car with cigarettes.
Now we are on the highway, me behind him. My thoughts are scattered. Mostly landing on my children. Objects are teleporting around my car. I would put a lighter in the side door, it would appear in the console. I would put my cigarettes in the center cubby below the radio, I'd reach for them and they would be in my seat. A knife I had in case of self defense suddenly was pointed towards me I noticed as it laid on the floor. I'd reach for my lighter. Disappeared again. On the floor. On & on.
I was so connected and wired up to the natural energy of the world, and society and it's jealousy towards a galactic future that the pressure was moving the objects around.
You can imagine I started freaking out.
My eyes were seeing cars around me changing colors as they changed distance. I thought I would loose my husband. I was tired of "people" reaching for my objects, my children, my life.
I made one of the stupidest decisions of my life because all the cars kept changing shades and etc, that i thought I was going to loose sight of my Husband. I freaked out and took him, and I, off the road by bumping my front bumper into the back of his. We landed in the ditch.
I got taken to a hospital again for being unresponsive and catatonic. He drove home. In the ambulance, I kept my eyes shut. They had to cut through my clothes like a notepad of paper, with spiritual dominance. I wouldn't say a word but telepathy was activated and swimming in remorse and fear. The ambulance technicians lifted my cot, up a foot towards my head, and set it down. "You gonna just....?" "Yeah." They moved me up a foot in the back of the ambulance and left. I still had my eyes shut.
I laid there for about an hour, never opening my extremely shut eyes. I heard two women directly outside of my ambulance that were locked in a roleplay. They sounded like things my daughters would say in this situation. "I'm innocent!"
"I'm innocent, TOO, hmph."
"Hmph."
For minutes and minutes I lay not looking. Time passed. I felt like I was lying in a field. Aliens were near, or I swore and took my consciousness into.
Lo and behold, I end up on my cot,.... In a white room. With a single door. All white. In a hallway. Nobody had moved me in my gurney out of the ambulance. I just was lying in the bed in this chamber. I heard one of the ladies that was talking before "That doctor was CR-AAA-ZY!" Something about her female doctor she disagreed with.
My doctor showed up for me to sign papers and get a sample. He looked identical in many ways to my step-dad at that time. This made me feel safer. In ALL things, synchronicity....
**NOTE: the significance of the white room was part of a huge joke I had that I was convinced aliens did to each other. Like the final chest at the bottom of a dungeon that you can never leave apart from- in a white room. But it's a huge prank.
